After a long battle with my heart, I finally gathered my scattered courage to write this letter. The truth of the matter is; my heart has never been at peace since the day you left me.
At first, it all seemed okay. I thought a few bottles of beer and some little time alone were enough to kick you out of my mind but how wrong was I. The more the days go by, the more I remember the good time we had together.
I pretend to be fine whenever we meet, but how I wish you would see the pain behind my laughter, the tears behind my smile and the torture behind my happiness. What hurts me most is not the fact that you left me but the fact that you are happier with him than you were with me. Your smile is now broader and your laughter louder. You even brag about him to your friends but I remember it was a crime for me to hold your hand in public. I was only your boyfriend in the bedroom, a stranger outside in the world.
Please tell me; what does he have that I don’t? What makes him more of a human being than me? Is it the money? Is it the fame? Please tell me because deep down in the darkest corner of my heart, I’m pregnant with some fainted hopes that I will one day win you back.
How I wish I could delete your number, but how can I when every single digit of it is deeply rooted in my brain. I have called you more than a hundred times, but all my calls go unanswered. I have texted you for as long as I can remember, but not even one of my texts has ever gotten a reply. I will however never give up on you because I am sure no man will ever love you the way I do.
They say everything happens for a reason, I just hope the reason for your departure is worth the pain and suffering I am going through but you know what? As long as you are happy, I will endure the pain as I hope to get someone who will love me the way you did.